Get Personal With Me: Of Leaving My First Job, Realizations, and Freelancing


Hello, dolls! How are you doing? Tonight, I decided to write about my feelings I kept bottled up for quite a while now. Anyway, if you know me personally, you might already know that I have resigned from my first job... I left my position as a staff nurse one week ago, and to be honest, it felt very liberating. The first few weeks of my work was indeed fulfilling and satisfying; I've gotten to see the realities of being a nurse here in the Philippines and witness the beauty of saving lives. I felt genuinely happy when I first heard the most heartfelt thank you from a patient and his relatives, and yes, that's what kept me going for the following months.

However, being a nurse is not an easy job. You have to be patient, enduring, and persevering. The last few weeks of my stay in my first hospital suddenly felt very dragging, extremely tiring, and exhausting. I lost my motivation to work. I kept asking myself if I really wanted to be where I was, if I really wanted to become a nurse, if I really made the right choice.

Then I came into a conclusion.

Of course, I still wanted to become a nurse. Maybe I was just overwhelmed, maybe I just dove in too early towards the world of adulthood that I found myself very confused and lost. If I had to say it, quarter-life crisis is true.

I have considered so many things before leaving my job. I was so scared because that place became my comfort zone, I was so afraid that it will be too late for me once I have decided to continue practicing my profession.

However, my parents put my mind at ease and assured me that I am still young and that I should take this particular opportunity to find myself and decide about what I really wanted to become. Resigning from my job felt like it was the right thing to do. I can now focus on day-to-day tasks and slowly consider things. My heart is happier and my whole being felt more free.

Since I am no longer working full-time, I came back to freelancing. I have been freelancing since November of 2016, and I have a fair share of work done. I am still using Upwork as my platform and that is also the place where I get my clients from. So far, I am enjoying my current lifestyle as a freelancer since I get to have more freedom and I can always get to choose my most convenient time to work.

Also, to help my soul relax, I made a new playlist over at Spotify. If you wanted to give it a listen, I will link it below:

If you wanted to start your career with Upwork, feel free to leave a comment below or send me an e-mail ( This post is nowhere near being sponsored, I just wanted to share my thoughts and current happenings in my life. Feel free to leave a comment below as well!



  1. Thanks for sharing this Patricia. I once worked in a clinical laboratory but I also ended up quitting. Now, I am looking for a freelance job, like what you have. I have an account at Upwork but I do not have clients yet. I wonder what else can I do. Thank you for the help. :)


    1. Hello, Myx!

      It just really came to a point where I don't feel happy at all--parang I was dragging myself to go to work nalang. :( For Upwork, I started looking for clients who don't demand so much and those who accepted entry level freelancers. My first work was writing tips in thesis writing and then attaching their blog site to one of the keywords. In applying for a job posting, you can mention things like you're a blogger, how many years you've been writing, etc. It helped me a lot back then. :) Let me know if you need more help! :)

      God bless!


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